Monday, November 4, 2013

10 My Life...As a Fire-Fighter's Wife


I sat down tonight determined to write my third post on our kitchen remodel...my phone buzzed with a new text message...

My Life as a Fire-Fighter's Wife

My stomach dropped
I immediately called my husband, 

knowing 
I'd get his voice-mail, 

knowing
I'd be a nervous wreck until I heard from him...

I started scanning the Internet looking for a clue...

'Backdraft' explosion sends shards of glass spewing 100 feet from Jacksonville KFC


Now nauseous, I plead with my phone...ring...text message ding...do anything!

I know he was in there...I know he was in there...my sixth sense is in full swing.

Such is my life...as a Fire-Fighter's wife.

Most of the time I push what my husband does to the back of my mind. To the la la land where princesses and fairies live.

I mean really...who in their coherent mind would go running into a burning building...total FICTION right???

Wrong, my husband along with countless other crazies heroes do this very frightening thing called firefighting for a living.  They run towards what everyone else runs from.

When I think of this position my husband is in, mostly, I'm proud...but on nights like tonight... I'm scared!

My Rotties (times three) surround me...sensing a faster heart beat...slight rise in blood pressure...adrenaline pumping.

My phone starts to ring...I see his face on my phone screen, answering as quickly as I can...praying it is him and NOT a member of his crew....

It's him! I'm Thankful for the 30 second phone call just to say "I'm okay...yes I was in the building when it exploded...I promise I'm okay"

Todd has an incredible guardian angel...
He was in the building with his firefighter, Jennifer, when the explosion happened.  My 200+ Lieutenant was thrown to the ground like a rag doll....
Backdraft Explosion at Jacksonville KFC
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Manning the water and hoses from outside, his engineer, Bob, watched the building explode.... while insulation and other debris spewed from the front window.  
He was thinking ~ I just lost my crew...
Backdraft Explosion at Jacksonville KFC

Inside Todd yelled for his firefighter...no answer....he yelled again grateful to hear her yell back.  They crawled out of the building in a fog where fantasy meets reality.   

Reality, my husband has a dangerous job.  I'll never get used to that...I'll push that fact to the back of my mind and let the fairies and princesses come forward.  Isn't that what we all do in order to stay sane? 
Feeling extremely lucky, my husband buys lotto tickets and blows the engine horn as he passes our dear friend's daughter's house on the way back to the station...normalcy is seeping back with every passing moment. 
He calls me, tells me he loves me, promises me that he will be safe, we say goodnight. 

I tell myself he'll be okay, knowing just how little sleep I'll get tonight...

My Life as a Fire-Fighter's Wife

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10 comments:

  1. I can't imagine being in your position! You seem to take it a lot better than I would! I'm so glad that he was ok. :)

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    1. Thank you so much Brittnei! I'm so glad he is okay too! Gave him the longest hug in history when I got home from work today!
      xoxo

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  2. So glad he is OK, my friend. That must be so completely nerve wracking. Thanks for sharing your story. Great reminder for the rest of us too. Thankful for heroes like him!!

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    1. I'm so relieved everything is alright! I think I aged a few years last night...Todd LOVES his job, fighting fires and helping others! Some people are born to do this!
      Thanks for your support sweetie!
      xoxo

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  3. I'm glad your husband is okay, it must be really hard going through that. You are a strong woman,may God bless you and your family always.
    ***Sarai F.

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    1. Thank you Sarai! I think we are ALL strong when we need to be...in those times of trouble!
      God bless you and your family as well...It means so much to me that you took the time to comment!
      xoxo

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  4. I did the same thing to my husband a few days ago when he was supposed to be coming off shift. I was driving my boys to school and saw a plume of smoke in the distance. I knew that by the location of that smoke, he would be a few hours late getting home. I texted him to see if he was on that fire and his lack of response was my answer. I just said a little prayer for his safety as well as everyone else on that fire and went about my morning waiting for his phone call. It is sometimes scary to be a firefighter's wife and not always know what kind of danger your husband is in, but I have a better understanding than most because I also was a firefighter. I resigned when he and I got married so that our children wouldn't have two parents doing life-threatening work. Sometimes having first-hand knowledge of what a firefighter does makes it easier to not worry. Sometimes that knowledge also has me imagining the worst case scenario. Especially after there have been so many deaths this year in our state (AZ) alone. Just stay strong:)

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    1. Thank you for commenting Katie! I LOVE connecting with other firefighter wives...who can relate to the mix of emotions that go with the position..

      I can't imagine having that insider knowledge that you have. My husband doesn't share a fraction of his experiences with me, I just know it was a bad call when he phones just to double check I am alright. The firefighters in Jacksonville respond to all medical emergencies as well adding another dimension to the job.
      Please thank your husband for his service, and thank you as well! It takes an extremely special person to be a firefighter.
      Stay safe and strong!!
      xoxo

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  5. I too am a fire fighter wife. We live in-between the two stations in town so when he is on shift I hear every call go out at night. It's been 16 years and my heart still drops. I don't think that ever changes. Thank you for sharing your story.

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    1. Yea! Another Fire Family member!
      Wow...that would be difficult to hear every call they went on! I can't imagine.

      What you don't know doesn't hurt you...isn't that what people say? I tend to agree!
      When I am on the phone with him and the alarm goes off I cringe...because then I KNOW!
      I agree...I'll never get used to it...Stay strong!
      Thanks for reading and commenting!
      xoxo

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